75. Report - How will things continue for me and with the pilgrimage

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What are the next steps:

 

- I have to earn money so that I can pay my debts that arose from the unwanted return to Germany.

 

- I have already found a job as a German teacher. It sounds strange: the war in Ukraine is an advantage for me because there are now many Ukrainian refugees in Germany who have to learn German.

 

- In order to work, I need my laptop, on which I have a lot of important materials for the lessons. But the laptop is still in the Bodhi Zendo, the meditation center in Tamil Nadu.

 

- I have already applied for a new visa for India. Not only so that I can get the laptop, but also to collect further spiritual experiences in the meditation center and to be prepared for my new life in Germany. And to make a pilgrimage for a few more days to say goodbye to holy India and its streets.

 

- But, the visa application was rejected - I cannot come back to India now.

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- So I have to trust that my spiritual path can continue here in Germany. That is not easy. Life here has lost a lot of spirituality. For most people, money and material security come first. The media reports a lot of negative and frightening things.

 

- There's more restlessness in my head now too. I'm less mindful and starting to live like a remote controlled individual in everyday life again. But there's a good thing: most of the time, after a few minutes, I realize that I've lost touch with the deeper self.

 

- I then stop the physical movement, pay attention to the breathing - observe the body and its parts - collect myself - concentrate on the moment - and more and more often a deeper experience suddenly arises, as if I were only really with myself now. - It is very satisfying and relaxing to be in the here & now with the conscious body and mind.

 

If I often have such mindful, deep moments of existence, the new everyday life in Germany will also be good.

 

God or the divine exists. Also in us. We only need to direct our concentration in the right direction - have patience - allow reality, which means in particular having to trust our powerlessness. When the human ego stops struggling, the divine self can emerge within us.

 

When we are deeper within ourselves, many good things around us happen automatically.

 

Do you know what happened?! Suddenly a good solution was found for the problem with the laptop: someone will bring it to Germany for me at the beginning of 2023.



 

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